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My Sanctuary Above The Noise.

This is where I pour my thoughts in and record my daily adventures~~~




Not to be emo or anything (just an observation) but I’ve noticed something…

I have almost no more friends I can go up to in public (Epic wise) and have a deep meaningful conversation with…

I can only name like…3-5 (and most of them are on core team LOL) on my hand…it was already not that many people compared to last year…

Why am I so lonely and busy…I want to connect but I feel like I can not…(crap it’s turning emo)

Is it my unwillingness or initial detachment to people?

Am I just busy? Shy?

Why am I so wired for a need to warm up to people first?

Is it because of something that I’ve experienced in the past from friendships? If so, I really can’t remember…

Why are relationships so freaking hard and complicated…

Thankful, Ryan is coming in town this week on Friday at 4 pm…time to just relax and turn it up hardcore…




I question if Epic could truly change people sometimes…

And then I look at my own life, I look at what has happened for me, I look at my friends, their lives, etc.

And I was right. Epic can’t change anything. No ministry can change anything or anyone…

…without Jesus.

Jesus changes people, not Epic. This is the vision. This is the goal.

We are running the race of our lives. This is God’s kingdom

Join us.




should make a new blog soon since the number of anonymous people in Epic are increasing…LOL

My 5 year old blog D: 




I’m going to vent my frustrations from this week so hardcore after my exam.




THIS FRESHMEN CLASS IS JUST FULL OF PUNKS.

I LOVE YOU ALL BUT GOSH, YOU GUYS ARE A BUNCH OF PUNKS.




It’s like I WANT TO STUDY.

BUT IF I STUDY ALONE, I DIE.

I NEED COMPANY BUT I NEED GRADES TOO.

IT’S A DIE DIE SITUATION.

WHY.

And then my need for warming up to people…

CURSED IS THE SHY EXTROVERT.

WOE TO ME.




Every broken heart be brave~~~




I don’t have it all together.

I’m broken, smashed…

torn, exhausted, thirsty.

I don’t have it all together.

Everywhere I see…there is

hesitation, fear, loneliness,

and pain. Even in myself.

I don’t have it all together…and yet I consider myself to have everything at the same time.

Because I have Jesus. 




Not going to lie, fall retreat this year was my favorite one in the last 3 years I’ve gone…

I really liked my small group! I also liked playing on the worship band for the retreat…

I was finally able to unwind there…I haven’t been able to do that since school started




jspark3000:

Women are not the props in a man’s hero story or savior-narrative. We are partners, struggling together, the same journey to one horizon. 

To the women in my life who have grown me to where I am now, thank you.







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